Absolutely Delusional
Mr Junior Banker: I don’t want to hurt you.
Me: Huh?
Mr Junior Banker: Well, I don’t want to hurt you, because I think you are either infatuated with me, or falling in love with me…
Talk about delusional. Is he serious?
Some days later…
Me: … infatuation is what I have for my shoes. And as for falling in love, no offense, but no, I am not falling for you - I don’t know you well enough.
And maybe that’s all those years and attempts at relationships talking, but being “in love” is more than just a feeling. It’s about trust, and responsibility, and honesty, and knowing that everything that you are, were, will be, is it, and that he is okay with.
Recently I’ve realized that as if my emotions are dead. I want to be swept away, but I don’t seem to anymore. Is that growing up or is that being guarded? I’d like to think I’m not the latter - because I believe in giving everything I want to do 100%. It just seems that there are more important things to do than “feeling something”.
But I do feel happy.
Oh yes, no longer seeing Mr Junior Banker. I know I lack details, but suffice to say, it was fun whilst it lasted, but after what was said, I couldn’t see him and not laugh my head off - I just didn’t have to heart to tell him that I was involved with someone else. Why make someone feel bad about themselves? 
You are so humorous, and your words are so attracted me.